4 years.

Saturday November 17, 2012.

the most eventful moment of my senior year. the most exciting moment of my senior year. it was amazing.
eventful, crazy, hectic, and overall, amazing.
my dear section leader was pissed and sad that we weren't able to sit with our group of friends, but as the day went on, food, freshmen, and having the peace and calm of being able to sit with our section got to her and she seemed okay with it. i love her so much. she is adorable and amazing. i don't know how she does it, but she kept her patience and her temper and she turned out to be both the most amazing friend ever, but also one of the most amazing section leaders i have ever had (given i've only had 2). the year went by so fast though, so fast that i was oblivious to how amazing my dear friend could be at being... her. there's something about her that no one can replace. but moving on.
the 2 hour ride with my boyfriend to the last field show competition i would ever march in was relaxing. i got to sleep and realize how great the freshmen in my section are. the moment we got to the school, we went to find bathrooms, the lines were too long and we were so close to going in the guy's bathroom but decided not to... dinner was uneventful but peaceful. i hadn't realized that the dinner we had just eaten was the last of our marching band season. everything was going by so fast, we changed, blocked up, did our usual sectionals which was this time actually very pleasant, had a little freshmen mishap, and our full rehearsal of amazing music. the MUSIC was just...amazing. it was.. magical. we then had our inspirational speech from one of my best friends ever, and we were off.
then... the sprinklers. i was so proud of the whole band for staying set and staying in their spot until they were given instructions or if they were too close to the water. after the guard and the pit got soaked however, we were all flustered. at first it was funny, then not as much. after a while, the sprinklers turned off, the whole band was full of discipline and ready to kick ass and we performed.
the awards were amazing. everything announced from 5th place to 2nd place, i was so horribly nervous. when they were about to announce the scores i would squish my eyes together, grasp the fence, and just shut up all together. my favorite "freshie" was with me and kept me calm and kept me entertained while i was waiting and nervous as hell. it was nice to catch up with the boy. i realize why i may have mildly liked him last year. but anyway. the bonding time with him was amazing and fun, 2nd place was amazing. i told myself that i would be fine and i wouldn't cry, but as soon as i saw my amazing drum major up front and in person, i felt the tears roll down my face... it was all unreal. 4 years of heaven and hell put together, my band family, it was torn last year because of the 2012 graduating seniors but we kept together as girls and the few juniors in our group. i didn't realize how sad i would be that the 4 years of all my hard work and not knowing what the hell i was doing in the beginning would pay off. i never thought i would be anybody anywhere, but i was actually somewhat known in band... that's 190 kids that know me. i never thought that would happen.
so on the walk back to the buses i had more bonding time with dear "freshie". oh boy that kid... tried to pick me up more times than needed.
i got back to the bus to find my boyfriend in the seat...depressed. as soon as i saw that, i felt horrible. absolutely horrible. i wanted to charge to him and just give him the biggest hug ever, but of course i couldn't. i hadn't seen him that depressed in probably a year or so. i felt like the biggest bitch ever when he told me.. i just wanted to run away... i felt like the absolute biggest bitch ever. i'm the worst girlfriend ever. i'm sorry. anyway, after the talking and all, had some wonderful bonding time with my friends. in my last big band ride home.
all in all, eventful. wonderful. amazing. 2nd the best.
i can't believe that it's been 4 years. i remember back when i was a freshman and didn't know what to do because annie was with the sophomores and i was stuck being a nobody. and then.. i met andy. and little did i know that he would be one of the most important people i would ever meet. i love him so much. he is the best non biological mommie ever. and meeting my family... i never thought i would have so many friends and have them all be my family.
i can't believe 4 years of marching band has passed... all that hard work. i'll never be able to view braveheart, alice in wonderland, come sail away, where the wild things are, helen and paris, and yellow the same ever again.
marching band made my high school life worth it.

bittersweet ending. i'll miss you.
but then again.
i won't.
❤SHS Spartan Marching Band and Colorguard