run away?

"Instead of some awkward relationship of love that doesn’t last for thousands of years
The distance between you and I is like a road full of traffic, it’s just feels hopeless, we aren’t even far or close
I think it’s about time we got closer, I’m a little impatient, but I’m not being forceful
I just want to escape the nervousness and uncertainty of losing you
I want to walk with you on a bright sunny day

Because of you you you you
I only think of you
you you you Now
Love me, love me, only look at me"

maybe i'll just run away. no one would look for me, would they? i hate being like this.. being the me that i don't want anyone to see.. weak and stupid and helpless and useless. this isn't how my parents are, or my friends, or anybody around me. the me who wishes that someone would care... why am i like this? is this what always happens when i open up... i let people in and nobody likes what they see and everyone just runs away. i'm left alone again. 

exposed, open. 

sad.. 

maybe i'll just take my phone, charger, earphones, and just walk away. walk away with my music from life that seems to hate me so much and kick me in the ass every time something good happens. it would make everyone else's life much better too. but if i don't run away now, i just gotta bear it. smile and purge on my internet diary. i'm fine. of course. right? right.