Why can't I ever ever do anything right? EVER. I can't cook right, I can't read right, I can't talk right, I can't write right, I can't study right, I can't play piano right, I can't teach right, I can't play video games right, I can't do ANYTHING right...actually, I can.
I can fail right...I really..just....nothing goes right..everything has it's screw ups. And I'm just a person who's basically just made of screw ups...why can't I do it right? can't I be happy? Nope. Can I be free? Eh. Can I fail? Yeah. Am I failing? Yeah. I know I'm screwed cause of math...I know it already... But PLEASE. just let me be happy...with everything...
Let this be a good year. I have college apps I have SAT I have school and piano and teaching and band and a boyfriend....In all the academic, emotional, and fun ways. PLEASE. pleasepleaseplease... I hope I can do it all....
Cause the first thing that would go...I don't want it to go.. It's the one thing that might actually maybe just a little work for me....
But even with that one thing... I still can't do anything right.
Fuck.
I hate being me.
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