yay.

i wonder if i mean anything to anyone.. 

i feel like shit. 

yay. 

i'm not gonna let all of this get to me. i already said so. 

why am i letting it get to me. 

truthfully, i want to talk to you. i want to say it all. but then i know it's not all completely true. 

i want to tell you that i didn't lose the game. that you can't break me. that if you push me down, i'm going to get back and be even stronger. 

but i don't.

because i'm not always like this. 

nope. 

i want to say it. it's true. but it's false too. 

fuck. 

i want to sleep all day. 

i want to party all night. 

i want to forget my troubles and wash away the fight. 

lonely again. no one to talk to.

no one to cry with. 

no one to trust. 

i want to run away. 

i want to cry. 

i want to soar and fly. 

i want someone to be there for me. 

but i want to be alone. 

i don't want to be left alone. 

not again. 

yeah i can handle it. 

but i don't want to..

if only there was someone that's just afraid to lose me.. 

i just want someone to love me and care for me enough that they're afraid to lose me..

Played

i got played.

duh.

should've known.